By Bhavanjot Kaur
“Imagine a concert with 40 musicians. Each musician plays specific music, with unique melodies and with a unique tempo. Together all musicians create a beautiful symphony, containing harmony, rhythm, life and feeling. It is similar to our earthly “concert.” Each person is playing an instrument and is destined to play a specific melody with a unique tempo. We reincarnate again and again until we “tune in” and create harmony in the “concert.” And the concert is love and service.” *
I was told that when I was a small child I stood in the front of the children in church, singing “Jesus Loves Me,” while pulling my dress up as I was belting out the words. I don’t have a lot of memories of my early childhood that are positive, so I hold this one dear. I am grateful for the photo that someone took of my first public debut as a vocal artist. It would seem my career began and ended on that day, but still I am grateful for the story and the capture of it that reminds me of a day when my song perhaps still had the hums of innocence and sweetness―no fear or phobia, no anxiety, no judgment, no insecurity―just pure unadulterated love.
“The unit of every country is the family, and the strength of the country is based on the smiles of the children and the songs of the adults.” *
I remember early on in my Kundalini Yoga practice, I was uncomfortable with my voice when chanting. While I would sing and car dance like a pop star on the way to class, something was stirred up in me when being asked to chant unfamiliar mantras in a room full of 'strangers'. It felt awkward to say the least. My voice would crack from high to low and I am not even sure if what I was saying was right.
All I can relate it to is when my best friend’s cat was in heat and dug her claws into the window screen and sang her drawn out 'meows.' It wasn’t pretty. Okay, so maybe I wasn't that bad, but I do remember my discontent with my voice and sharing this with my teacher and the yoga class. My words were something like, “I just don’t like how I sound.”
My teacher immediately interjected in a calm yet commanding way a simple, “No!” She adjusted this deeply ingrained thought pattern giving me another explanation. She said something along the lines of my voice being a part of the universal sound, and that without my voice the sound of the Universe would be incomplete. Wow!
Her words grabbed a hold of my soul and shook me. I never thought of my voice like that. It made sense and felt true to me. Her response changed me right there in that moment.
I respect and value silence and have since I was a young child. I unfortunately suffered from the labels ‘shy and quiet,’ and allowed these terms to negatively define me for most of my younger days. With that being said, I realized in this moment with my teacher that my voice was necessary―not just for chanting, but for so much more. I felt it in my heart that day. My voice was needed in any form that it could take, and I knew somehow that the chanting would be the key to unlock the sound that was hidden deep within me.
“I am a humble instrument giving you a technique which is practical and which can be proved. There is no duality. We do not give the mantra in the ear and we do not make a special mantra for the special person, because we know that one God has created everyone, and He is in everyone, and one master key can open all the locks of darkness and unawareness.” *
Mantras are the key to unlocking our creative potential. After chanting for several years now, I have been able to redefine what my silence meant in my earlier days. I now tell my inner child that she was a good listener―a deep thinker with great awareness and great love in her heart who spoke when it was necessary and important.
I have also acknowledged that my silence as a young child might have been the influence of abuse that led me to be silenced. There is a difference between choosing silence and being silenced. I have since found great peace in the silence. I have also learned that I can speak, write and chant my truth with great courage and love in my heart if I so choose, but that I can still choose silence when and where I want. As I continue to find my true voice, I watch as the anxiety falls away. Fears, phobias and insecurity lose power when playing the instrument of truth in the symphony of love.
“The reality is, there is nobody who can limit you. There is nobody who can damage you. Your existence is not bound in time and space. You always have a choice of how you project your mind.” *
During my teacher training, I recall my teachers talking about how most (not all) pop artists we hear on the radio are singing from the lower chakras, but mantras are chanted from the heart. I’m not sure that we always do this intentionally, but it happens.
Mantras have the power to redirect the projection of our mind and they drop us right in the middle of our love center―the heart chakra. I also recall my teacher once saying to a class that if a mantra grabs you, then it is a gift and you should follow it and see where it takes you. I have always trusted this wisdom.
I was recently grabbed by the mantra, Chattr Chakkr Vartee. This mantra removes fears, phobias and insecurities and takes you right into the heart.
“Chattr Chakkr Vartee is the mantra for the heart center. It gives direct energy to it. When you are sinking, if you know this mantra and can sing it, you can totally recuperate yourself.” *
Ever since this mantra grabbed me, I chant along when I feel inspired to do so and have been playing it in my home all day, at night next to my bed, and softly in the car when I am driving. My daughter also listens and chants along, and I have noticed that her face and her eyes have become lighter and brighter since this mantra has taken root in our home again.
I recall my teachers once saying that they used to play this mantra around the clock in their home for their child and that she would hear it in her mind as she walked around the playground at school. Dropping fears, phobias, anxiety and insecurity in grade school and in ‘earth school’ is something we can all benefit from.
Chanting mantra in the concert of life can inspire that smiling child within to come back to life, stirring up the voice of our heart and the song of our soul, and it can carry us fearlessly into our destiny of love at its fullest expression. What could be better than that?
“If you live in absolute fearlessness, God will live in you because fear and truth cannot go together.” *
* All quotes by Yogi Bhajan
Bhavanjot Kaur is the owner and founder of Hamsa Healing Arts located in Centerbrook, CT. Bhavanjot is a Kundalini yoga teacher and Radiant Child Yoga Teacher. Bhavanjot is a Reiki Master practitioner and Teacher, Craniosacral therapy practitioner, Raindrop therapy massage practitioner and she also offers sound therapy with a 32" Paiste Symphonic Gong. Bhavanjot is a consultant for essential oils, medicinal mushrooms and CBD oil. She is mother to a delightful six-year-old little girl who overcame a rare childhood kidney cancer, which inspires her work with Lucy's Love Bus and the Connecticut Cancer Foundation.