Trusting Your Ground
By Sat Purkh Kaur Khalsa, New Mexico, USA
Like the flower gives a fragrance, give yourself a chance, just a chance, to trust yourself, love yourself, and be yourself. Now close your eyes, raise your right hand, place your left hand on your heart, and take a vow, repeating 3 times: I trust myself, I love myself, I am myself. —Yogi Bhajan
It has taken me a long time to learn to trust myself again. At a certain point in my life, I made a choice to become something I thought ‘you’ wanted and set aside my ‘self.’ For most of us it happens when we’re very young, before a true identity has even had a chance to form. The ‘me’ I set aside became smaller and smaller over the years, eventually getting lost in the noise of self-deprecating humor, self-defeating habits, and a downward spiral of self-loathing that at one point seemed bottomless. How can we not come to despise this “other self”—this identical identity as Yogi Bhajan put it? It has stolen our birthright, our true identity, and replaced it with nothing but a shell, a husk, a ghost.
My moment of reckoning came by simply looking into the mirror one day. I no longer recognized myself. This complete self-defeat became my new ground, my new foundation, for it was only in this moment of utter bankruptcy that I had an opportunity—a chance—to be reborn. In working on the Rebirthing Yoga Manual and Lectures Series, I’ve been so moved by Yogi Bhajan’s repeated calls to give ourselves a chance, just a chance, to receive all that the Universe is waiting to hand to us if we could only allow it in. But before we can be open to the flow of the Universe, we have to be open and honest with our self. We have to accept our self. We have to be able to say, “I trust myself, I love myself, I am myself.”
With that, everything flows toward you because you are vibrating you! As Kundalini Yogis, our ground is our identity—Sat Nam—our truth, radiance, light, and love. Our values and virtues are alive and vibrate in the consciousness of Ang Sang Wahe Guru.
Remember: There is nothing outside of you; there is only you. May you dance on the firm ground of your identity and may nothing shake you from the reality that is you! Say it with me: I trust myself, I love myself, I am myself. Wahe Guru!
Sat Purkh Kaur is the Creative Director for the Kundalini Research Institute.
 © The Teachings of Yogi Bhajan, December 6, 1988. This and other meditations and kriyas can be found in the forthcoming Rebirthing Yoga Manual and Lecture Series. Available from the Kundalini Research Institute, Summer Solstice 2011, www.kundaliniresearchinstitute.org.